About writing

Do you think it is easy to write? I find it very time consuming to write just a short one. Although I knew what I wanted to write. But once I wrote it on the first sentence, then I am out of words. I didn't know what to write anymore. And yet, I am still eager to express more, as I hope writing will somehow help me sort my thoughts and feeling.

Thinking back to my school years, I found writing was one of my favorite works to do. I could write so much without much difficulties.
 
When I got into college, it wasn't as easy as it's used to be. It is probably because I had to write in a language I was not familiar with, since my English ability was very, very limited. But now, I am more familiar with English (I supposed), and yet I am facing another obstacle. I never write as much as I used to anymore. At least, when I was in school / college, I was assigned to write in a regular basis, which left me no choice but WRITE, WRITE, and WRITE! However, the situation is different. I am done with all those stressful assignments, and wish not to have it again. It is not because it was difficult. It is because of the pressure, especially in writing class. The topic was not so easy for me to grasp. It could be the culture differences that I hadn't yet fully adapted. So, sometimes I had to cheat a little bit, by googling here and there, sometimes just to get the a more understanding and ideas, but sometimes also for the wordings. Big thanks to my professors, who were so understanding, and let me pass with a "B".

Now time has passed. I didn't have to go thru the hardship of passing those writing classes again. I now could write freely. And as my English has surely improved by the longer I am now in the US, plus I must communicate with my closest beloved one in English, it should be easier for me. But I guess it is not the case. So, what is it then? It is about expressing my thought and feeling.

When I think of something I don't know what the answer is, I'd like to put it into writing. Hoping my finger would just keep writing with my mind wondering, trying to find the solution. But does it work that way? Yes, if I write right away what I have in mind. But often, the thoughts come when I am nowhere that I could write, such as when I was in conversation with someone. It is certainly impolite to excuse myself, ignore the other person whom I am talking to, and just do my writing. I had to wait a little bit until the opportunity comes. And when it comes, the writing desire's gone. How should I cope with this then?

I think it will be half of self desire in the area of topics, and half of it is the writing method I have learned during my school and college years.
Step 1: Write down in a very brief sentence on a piece of paper, or on the phone, or even on the palm as soon as you know what you would like to write about. It could be a question, a disagreement, or even a process of things that should be put down in writing as a reminder for future needs.
Step 2:  Bring up all the reasons that bring up this particular topic.
Step 3: Start writing as soon as you can. It is not about how much you write. But how much you understand of your own writing, that others may understand it as well.

Okay, it is now pretty clear to me. Even though I am not sure if I would be able to even do the first step to start my writing habit. But I will give it a try, and do my very best for the sake of my future self.

(Yes, you can do it!! ^-^v)