When You Have Nothing To Say...

Dear Diary,

There were many times I had wanted to write something, to share with you here. However, it only went half way, unfinished, and stored in the draft folder. Do you have anyone else who also has unfinished overdue writings in their drafts? Yet, I don't feel like deleting them - who knows that one day I would touch any of them again and finish it, for it does bother me seeing things are only half-way done. One of the reasons is I didn't know the solution to what was troubling me - and still don't know. Well, it's true that most of the time I write here is to pour out my heart, especially during my downtime.

Well, do you think I am an unhappy person because I always complain, talk about negative things of myself and others? At times, when I watch movies or read other people's blog, I found some of them are always so cheerful, can make others smile and even laugh. Even at a difficult time, they are still able to speak with hope and cherish others. Is it possible for one person to always be so upbeat like that, even without a slight of negativity found in them? If so, I really want to become that kind of person. Anyone knows the secret recipe for this??? Please, tell me.

There was a devoted Christian who posted something like, "Be positive!" or "Think positively!" or "Avoid negative people!" on her facebook awhile ago. When I read that, my first thought was that how should someone always be positive when the negative often is unavoidable? Is it by simply ignoring the bad? Isn't that just being narrow-minded?!?! And what about people who are more negative than positive, as myself, for instant? There is no way for people like me to live then, for there is no hope in it.

Furthermore, my husband once taught me the danger of the modern philosophy, which says "there is no good without the bad." Meaning that good must exist together with bad; or in other words, that God and Devil exist together at the same time, e.g. the concept of Yin Yang. But according to the Bible, God and Devil do not exist together at the same time. The Devil is actually the fallen angel. So, the good is always good. And, good and bad do not mix together. As what Jesus taught in His parable about the end of age, "Let both grow together  until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn" -  Matthew 13:30.

Going back to the original issue, how to be a person of hope?

Now, I remember this Bible verse that Apostle Paul wrote for the people in Philippi:

         "Rejoice in the Lord always ... Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus ... I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." - Philippians 4

Now that Christmas is coming, may we prepare our hearts to celebrate His coming as our Savior. For He came to die for us, His creatures whom He loves.

"Merry Christmas!" :)