Blog Challenge - What Fires Me Up

I am honestly not a patience person. So this topic should be a super easy one. Therefore, just a heads-up, that this post could be as long as an article... with full of complains!! :p

Ironically, I found out about this after I got married. I am so easily irritated by little things, esp. when I am tired. I remember I got extremely mad at my husband once, over $5 chicken wings that he bought for our lunch, while I was thinking to just eat our leftovers at home, which were almost none. :( I am also annoyed by him for always forgetting to wash his hands when he comes home. I literally still have to remind him almost everyday to wash his hands once he enters the house, and before he touches anything. You will understand why I am that paranoid if you see how dirty subways are in NYC. I constantly have to use handsanitizer when I am outside.

However, in most cases, I often get irritated at work. Obviously, it is because I spend more time at work than home. Also, in my line of work, where there is no clear lines of who does what, between my colleagues who are in the same position as me. Especially in emergency cases, which happen quite often. When I just started this job, I often came home crying, besides feeling exhausted, and complaining to my husband (a.k.a curhat, if u know what it means). Because my job requires not only lots of physical work - I mean, I have to be on my feet 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and not rarely when I get mandated I have to work 16 hours straight, running around here and there in very fast pace environment. And multitasking more than 2 or 3 things at once has to be done every minute, with no mistake is acceptable, for it will cause great danger to others. Besides that, I have to also deal with many ignorant / lazy coworkers, who don't care much about their jobs, and just prefer to chitchat, play with their phones, or even sometimes disappear when needed. So often times, jobs that should be done by 3 people have to be handled individually. On top of all these pressures, recognition or help from management team was something that couldn't be expected at all. For I ended up being given more responsibilities than all my other coworkers. 

When I came home from work, I used to sit at my dining table for hours, staring at an empty wall. And when I was going to work, I felt I was going to an execution place. Yet, I could not quit, for there was no other job offered to me. However, I thank God, He kept encouraging me thru His words, for His words are the one that gives my strength to go thru each day.

Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. If you suffer, if should not be as a murderer or a thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler. However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. For it is time for judgement to begin with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God?And, if it is hard for the righteous to be saved, what will become of the ungodly and the sinner? So then, those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good. - 1Peter 4:12-19

Soli Deo Gloria